life is beautiful sometimes.. i decided at 10:30 last nite to drive out to gimli. i drove in darkness with lightning as my landscape. no rain, just lightning in a dark sky stretched out before me. all around me. i arrived to a note on the door "we're at the beach". and so willow and i went to the beach and the waves were big and we all swam. instantly we were all away from everything usual swimming in the midnite with the waves and the stars and lightening. and we'd laugh..

it was a night with good friends and summer and funny things. i woke up and did not rush back for work. instead rob and susie and i went to indio's while sean slept. we ate on the patio. we read the paper. we were just there. happy.

back to sean's, we all napped and then went back to the beach. i felt work leave my body and my body relax. we all went for dinner and there was a dragon fly on the fireplace on the patio. i came back a couple of hours ago and one side of the sky was rain in the distance like slow motion, on the other side a rainbow. behind me the sky was the kind of dark i love. pthaloe. ahead it was a blue sky. i passed mustard fields after rain. it hurt and i smiled. i faltered and tried to stop stopping.

i came home and spoke to the australian on skype. i have avoided skype for every day since we ended because we fell in love in those days. but he wanted to test his new mic. and just as i suspected, we fall again. we both won't say it, but we just can't help it. we try not to say such nice things to each other. we try not to fall in love with the words on the page and the voice on the other end. i said, i hear your accent when you type. he said, pretty laugh. we tried our best, but we can't help it.

so far my holidays have been stunning..